27th may POP....between 23rd april and 31 may elections....times gonna run fast....we all know who's gonna win...we all know wat we have to do and be democratic...
there was a dark period of my life where i was deep in depression that had me suicidal and i had almost given up living altogether...i was so close on the verge of no return...in the realm of my mind there was a black and dark room, it reflected how i felt....at the end of the room there was a door and i was standing in front of it my hand on the knob...i knew if i opened the door and went thru it i would disappear and crease to exist...i would become chronically depressed and eventually take my own life....
i never looked back since...the fact i made that choice showed me that my no.1 value is will...and tat i am who i am because of how i came to be...i love me! so i wont change my values and beliefs attitudes and preferences.....just becuz of certain things tat are happening right now...
but right now...i wanna talk abt my no. 1 value which i believe in....and why its in my 1. in my list of values and beliefs that make up my identity...
WILL
tats where it all begins...even life in-itself, in our very consciousness in staying conscious...our every movement takes will...every breath, every action, every choice...
i have been watching anime/cartoon since very young...i vividly remember watching dragonball Z and teenage mutant ninja turtles...they influenced me alot...later in my life i would go on to learn martial arts (aikido...the way of the ki) and learn more abt will.... i watched anime one piece...10 years of one piece....10 years of luffy...always being willing....always smiling...i aslo watch naruto and bleach...they all influenced me...
soon after as i grew up with all the adversity around me and somehow i learned aikido which places emphasis on values like will compassion empathy peace and harmony...O sensei the founder said sth like "Will must be deeply rooted in your soul" only than can Aikido work...only than can you self-defend...it means to believe in yourself and have faith in yourself, to not doubt and worry, stress and panic...to be calm enough to perceive the intent of the enemy...and read the situation and react strongly and quickly...it influenced me...
there was a dark period of my life where i was deep in depression that had me suicidal and i had almost given up living altogether...i was so close on the verge of no return...in the realm of my mind there was a black and dark room, it reflected how i felt....at the end of the room there was a door and i was standing in front of it my hand on the knob...i knew if i opened the door and went thru it i would disappear and crease to exist...i would become chronically depressed and eventually take my own life....
i wanted to go in thru tat door cuz i gave up entirely and completely in even living...that was the lowest i ever felt in my entire 20 years of life...but i didn't...i didn't go past the point of no return...i choose to live...after all an Islamic scholar said "when the world pushes you to your knees...u are in the perfect position to pray"...it influenced me...
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