Life goes on till i get it back...
love goes on till im committed in...
bonds are tested situation shifted but wat is life without some problems ai?....
still i wont let them get to me, for i am rafi, im meant to be free...

 im definitely gonna publish a book or an academic journal into all the research i've been doing over the past few months...its been a blast and there's still more to come...i feel tat my skills have improved somewhat considerably but i still gotta a loooong way to go b4 i get there....i need experience...i need more knowledge im burning inside to get there where i wanna be...a psychologist...the best tat eva was...

i WILL get there or die trying...i wont give up no matter how hard it feels like (new skills are hard at first wat...) and i would do it and i know it, its freaky,  cuz i would rather try and die than to lie and cry....cuz i hate being helpless and being at the bottom of the pile...so i will work like a manic just to get there...

but i would also do so not only cuz of tat but also cuz im intrinsically motivated to do so:
-to make a difference in some1's life no matter how small, (esp. my own)
-to understand ppl and to say the shahadah and to witness allah, his signs and creations,without judgement,fulfilling my purpose in life,
-to be a troubleshooter in the whole system and scheme of things in society, fixing it so ppl's quality of life is enhanced and improved effectively, efficiently
-to empower and raise up the next generation (including my kids) of students and pass on my will as would all generations b4 me did, to be who i am now and beyond, as a teacher
-to find new and creative ways to think and see it make me $$$ MUHAHAHA!....the world is my playground and its where i belong...as a businessman taking cool cleaver and calculated risks
 

and most importantly...to take islam and apply it in psychology and show the world humanistic-ally allah's grace and power to the best of my abilities....

Lastly, it is our choices tat shows us wat we truely are, far more than our abilities...i choose to therefore, i would become...i become...i am...