HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE~!
seriously, this is the first time i've ever studied for exams on x'mas n new year...
didnt even celebrate as it didn't feel like a new year till now tat exams are over!!
last year was AWESOME!!
i changed like so soo much...seriously...
from insecure n fragmented carrying emotional baggage to whole, complete, congruent and happy
from i cant/maybe can to DONE!
from hate hate hate all those who spit me down n stopping me and make me hate me to
a wall of conscious single minded focus on wat i want and the reality of the situation
from low self esteem and inferiority complex, to managing myself better n tasting high self esteem(for the very first time in my entire 17 years of life)!!
from nobody to somebody;an identity tat exists as clear as shadow
from not gonna ever happen to the world is the limit
from stupid, blur, numb skull n retarded to smart n wise and creative
from lazy, depressed, couch potato to hardworking alpha dog
from no life to burning desire soo hot if i didn't satisfy it I'll never R.I.P;
an endless flame for knowledge
from no talents-at-all-whatsoever to things tat i can do well in and excel
from plain, old unnoticeable weird thing to BOOMING addictive energy and its
vibes tat can make heads turn round without a frown
from distorted polarity to being efficiently able to handle the id-the kid in me (mostly T.L.), ego superego(adult rafi!) and the spectrum of emotions tat come along with it via different persona...
from only 1 perspective to lateral thinking at the same time
from left brain to using at least some right brain (finally)
from questions un-answered for too long to definitive fullstops
from only 1 perspective to lateral thinking at the same time
from left brain to using at least some right brain (finally)
from questions un-answered for too long to definitive fullstops
who would have known...tat tat little kid whose crazy just a little bit would break out of the hampering negativity of family, friends and society...and in a country with no identity this world is mine to cast my baits...
who would have known...tat the boy who was furiously, desperately struggling to cope with personal issues and come to closure with them ALL would get attached to a beautiful gorgeous girl right after he DID...(the biggest challenge/competition or most formidable enemy...is yourself)
2010 will be the deciding year of my future career...what i will do or whom i become or when I'll be free form any financial strain i don't know...but a new beginning marks the fact tat Im alive, healthy, mentally, emotionally, n physically...tank u god for everything!! tank u! tank u! tank u!...i live on to c 2010...perhaps I'll live on to c myself make my mark on earth or die trying...
im glad im alive and im here
tat means ive got nth to fear
for tmr is way too complex to analyze
today I'll do my best continue living each day as if it were my last n
reach for greater heights in the next stage of personal evolution...
i know now tat i matter
i know now tat i too am destined for good n great things
i know now tat i can do it
i know now...n most importantly...im happy~!
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