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repression in its purerest form......


 note to self*


mistakes......
who ever knew they would have the power to hunt you 
till your last breath 
till you feel soo much pain its even hard to breathe
till the shame overtakes your system and drowns you downwards, towards the gates of hell
till the guilt makes you feel like your actually living in hell
whenever you remember it 
whenever something triggers it
why were you soo stupid?
why did you go thru soo much bullshit?
and all for wat?
so tat you end up
cut up in fragmented parts?

never here nor there
never a sinner or a saint
but forgiving oneself, is such an impossible pain 
that there is no salvation or freedom from such a chain

death might only bring abt more wicked suffering
over wat had already happened, its no use lying or crying
no use regretting
only good thing
is you don't stop praying
asking for mercy
but you don't know whether god is being forgiving
which is really scar-ing
which is really frightening
so u dont even know what
intro, verse, bridge, chorus, or outro
the future is in 
uncertainty is in 
its a curse to be stuck in
n once you die the punishment might be starting
the only best bet you have while you are living

is to pray for
some internal peace
some forgiveness
some mercy
some way to know your release
some reason 
cuz come daylight you might crease to exist


and never ever repeat wat u had did
for if u ever ever repeat wat u had did,
it would make u feel like shit
it would kill u on the inside
there's no end to it
god! on me me!,please please! dont damm it......

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