so i was in FB n some1 actually dissed on me...
(don't flare up boys, issue is already resolved alrite)
than i stood my ground n it was steadily escalating...
but than it stopped...n peace was made...
here's the thing...after everything tat had happened i asked myself...
why did i react/respond the way i did?
after much self analysis i realised sth even more clearly...tat all my life i was tot never to back down or give up...in my childhood was my bro n my gangs...in secondary sch it was ncc n aikido...so...being consistently conditioned by these kinda values and raised up like tat...dakara...im like tat now...
it wasn't abt pride or ego...
its abt standing up for yourself and...just self-defence (i don't pick fights)
though i would rather not fight...cuz im the type to avoid conflict very pro-actively...
my sensai taught me sth...I still hear his words "rafi...u got to realise...in a fight...no 1 wins...1 just walks away while the other gets injured...the problem still remains...". He was rite cuz the root of any issue wouldn't be addressed in a fight...
the best way to fight is to not fight at all...but he also taught me not to back off in any fight to enter n blend n use his own energy against him...his words, ESP if i find or come across sth very hard to do always resonates in my mind, "NEVER GIVE UP!!" after a lousy training session 1 rainy night @ the dojo still gets to me...cuz i know is soo god damm true...so i wont...
not now...not ever...for its already in me...part of my personality/identity...
(don't flare up boys, issue is already resolved alrite)
than i stood my ground n it was steadily escalating...
but than it stopped...n peace was made...
here's the thing...after everything tat had happened i asked myself...
why did i react/respond the way i did?
after much self analysis i realised sth even more clearly...tat all my life i was tot never to back down or give up...in my childhood was my bro n my gangs...in secondary sch it was ncc n aikido...so...being consistently conditioned by these kinda values and raised up like tat...dakara...im like tat now...
it wasn't abt pride or ego...
its abt standing up for yourself and...just self-defence (i don't pick fights)
though i would rather not fight...cuz im the type to avoid conflict very pro-actively...
my sensai taught me sth...I still hear his words "rafi...u got to realise...in a fight...no 1 wins...1 just walks away while the other gets injured...the problem still remains...". He was rite cuz the root of any issue wouldn't be addressed in a fight...
the best way to fight is to not fight at all...but he also taught me not to back off in any fight to enter n blend n use his own energy against him...his words, ESP if i find or come across sth very hard to do always resonates in my mind, "NEVER GIVE UP!!" after a lousy training session 1 rainy night @ the dojo still gets to me...cuz i know is soo god damm true...so i wont...
not now...not ever...for its already in me...part of my personality/identity...
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