It is our choices that we make, that show us what we are, far more than our abilities.

Last week of camp life....i am sooooo looking forward to P.O.P!!! Hope i get good posting...and near my house cuz transport expensive!! my experience in camp is drawing to an end and im like trying to juggle alot of things: -Re-condition, unlearn and understand the cognitive modifications and mental models involved in the government and social conditioning -To draw out the similarities and differences in the various uniform group's conditioning -Complete my research address validity and reliability issues and address it in a systemic perspective in relation to Singapore and its collective mindset -Learn meaning of known surahs -learn meaning of solat surah's -learn other dua's used in daily life and practice -learn and use daily life phrases in Islamic tradition and culture -learn new surahs -learn more about the Prophet Muhammad and sahabahs their life and Islamic history and civilization -learn new zikir and practice as well as meditate and re start zikir...

less than 3 weeks till i break free completely form the conditioning im subjected to u know where...cant wait...but at the same time... will i still be able to do my prayers 5x a day? will i be able to complete my "observational learning" session minimizing the thorny issue of impartiality, validity and reliability? will the rest of the 1 year and 6mths of NS be more sucky or better as a cause of my posting? where will i go further my studies...spore? or overseas? how will i get myself out of the system? and where am i going to migrate to? BIG qns at the crossroads of life.....reality is but an illusion as this world is only temporary.... There! i feel better now...whatever tat may happen is a test from god to bring his slave nearer onto him... he is closer to me than my jugular veins so why worry doubt or fear? life is here at present is near, now...